I want to be involved in your life but I can’t
Because that’s just the way things are
And that fucking sucks. It eats at me a lot.
What a mess it is to love someone so much, to the point where you feel it in every fiber of your being.
But you can’t be in their life
Because things aren’t the same anymore
You’re not the same anymore, they’re not the same anymore
And no matter how much you try to fight the urge. You know you can’t lie to yourself.
Why ever lie about your emotions or how you feel
That’s not who you are, but this is the way. This is the way things have to be.
Even if it hurts.
The person I wish to speak to is off living their own life. The last person who has seen all these different sides of me. Complete, and incomplete.
It hurts me so much to think about them. To know I can’t have what I wish to have. A moment in time, a memory, a hand to hold and a voice of reason.
If there really is another life, I wish to live through it, just know I’ll be searching for you always.
I’ll always love you.
It feels like I have no space, no person, to be myself around.
The people in my life get bits and pieces of who I am. When I’m reality, I’m masking so much.
I want to be passionate without feeling like a burden
I want to be honest without looking like a fool
I want to give love, and be seen too.
Everyone has a piece of me, everyone gets to see a glimpse, but it feels like no one wants me as a whole.
I want to grow into the person that I know that I can be, but it feels like I can’t be myself fully.
It feels like everybody likes me
But no one loves me.
See ya, Space Cowboy.
Yeah
I have found the secret
Of loving you
Always for the first time
All day I think of her
Her attention to detail
Her perfect love
Locked behind pages and pages and pages
Love will hurt you
Love will never mean to
Love is always the answer
And the sun will come crashing into my heart
But I will continue to believe
To believe that love trumps all
The cosmos will never understand
The world will never understand
I will never understand
Because who hasn’t done that?
Loved so intently
Even after everything is gone…
I still remember that night at the overlook
The cool summer breeze accompanying us while we gazed at the Dallas skyline
It’s something I find myself coming back to often
A moment in time, something I can hold and feel.
It feels warm to think of then, to place my hands on these pictures
These little pockets of joy
It felt so magical, so effortless.
I think about your eyes often
How easy it is to get lost in them
Watching your pupils dance back and forth
It feels like the world is watching me.
I wish you could see yourself through my eyes.
There’s so much I wish I could say now,
The way sunlight would pour onto your skin
The way you held me when all felt lost
The way you would see me, and hear me too.
I would do it all over again.
See the light inside my eyes,
Tell me how all of this, and love too, will ruin us.
Tell me we’ll never get use to it.
I really wish I could hug you again.
I miss you Sumer.
I started this really fun music idea with some friends.
The idea: each person invited to this music idea would be assigned a room. The room corresponding to that persons favorite color. It’s then up to them to describe what that color means to them musically. What emotions and vibe does that color give off, and if the cover art matches the color even better.
I’ve been enjoying it so much, having my friends make these playlists showing me little bits and pieces of who they are. I’m trying to create a friend group.
I’m 25 now.
Days blend into one another, I feel things in a different way now.
I want change , I believe in change but I still believe in somethings more than most.
Sometimes.
Still on my mind, sometimes it feels like things never change. But they do. They really do.
You ever feel like the world is always watching you, and nothing is ever just yours now?
I think I can speak my mind here.
I miss you very much. I wish I could talk to you.